teha's rants

 12/2020 hey gais hello 3 months gap after my last post. i just remember that i posses a blog to rant my feelings on. so what i have been doing for these months you say? hehe  last 2 weeks on September, i had been accepted into one small company dealing in selling jamu, apart than that, my bosses have 3 other sides company with different business and targets, so my position was admin and HR assistant. I have been dealing with payroll and some ad-hoc tasks. everything went well, i also gained some knowledge to make payroll, handling invoices bcs apart from HR tasks, i need to deal with selling jamus, entertain client supplier, because of pandemic so i also had dealt with socso and BP staff to get me and my staff for Covid-19 check-up. as for an introvert like me, this gets me an anxiety everytime i have to deal with person even to make a simple phonecall, so when exposed like this, sure this gives me some courage to do so. i hope i will get familiar with this. well, although i already g

 09/2020 hey gais hello. so ive been unemployed for 5months from my last job and finally i get to see a peep of light comin thru. i wont put high hopes regarding im accepted or not but actually i do hope that i will successfully landed a job i guess. its been a tough months for me as i am witnessing all my peers from college, high school get their life on track while me still doubting which way to take isit okay isit right choice what if this will end badly and so on what ifs always keep repeating on my head simultaneously. i might not shown my worries towards my family but still i feel intimidated day by day........   in my family among cousins and i, despite im the oldest from them all, im the only one whos still didnt get proper job yet as per they re already on their first car basis. honestly, i feel remorse towrads myself as i cannot make my parents proud of me. my aunts always bragging about their kids giving them allowances and so on hm well i guess i have to be patient. trust i